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i dont know if i've been living a lie for all these time. religion has been something that i've lived with my whole life and it's practices I would follow through and through.Then as I got older, I realized that all I wanna do is have fun & enjoy activities that kids my age would like to do. I didn't want to wear my headscarf, I would delay my prayers or not pray at all. Sometimes I would do other things that the religion wouldn't allow yet I still wanted to 'try everything in life & not regret it later on.' I started going home late, lying, enjoying food and I forgot all things holy. I'm almost at that age whereby i should have 'found God' and i should be on my knees praying and begging for forgiveness every single day. i should be going to classes, praying 5 times a day and going home early to read the Quran. the feeling in the my heart tells me that I should be doing all these things, but I just can't bring myself to. Dont get me...